Blessing Moon

Blessing Moon

So according to my Witch’s Date book tonight’s full moon is called the Blessing moon.
The moon will be full at 8:43 PM EST in Aquarius. Aquarius’ energy is that of uniqueness and change.
The ritual for this full moon, it seems to me may seem opposing itself but hear me out.
Sometimes we get in our own way of receiving blessings. We feel we must jump through hoops and prove ourselves worthy. Under this is the fear that we are not.
That we are worthless.
This full moon gives us the opportunity to get out of our own way. By letting go of conflict (whether internal or external) we open ourselves up to change.

Resistance to change is fear. Give it its name and look at why? What would happen if you got what you asked for?

I’ve been wrestling with this one A LOT lately. It has come to my undeniable attention that I am loved and respected. At the ripe old age of 41, I have been faced with my true Shadow –Myself.

I spent many MANY years hurting others before they could hurt me, pushing away love, sabotaging a promising career and acting out of fear.
That time has past, and I look back with enormous sense of loss and sadness that I hurt and cheated myself.
The intense grief and remorse that I feel has been beyond measure and at times I have felt I am drowning. Yet I must surrender to it. If I do not I will never feel forgiveness and gratitude.

In short I will never allow myself to receive my blessings.

Quite the full moon huh?
Blessed Be

20/20

Yesterday I got my new soft contact lenses. I've worn hard for 25 years and switching was a long process. Uncorrected I am 20/400, in layman's terms -blind as a freaking bat!

Today, I'm 20/20 for the first time in my life.
I'm also in the process of having the last permanent bridge put in my loud mouth.

So what. you ask?

Well, for most of my life I've had dreams of my teeth falling out (which eventually they started doing -genetics)
But the dreams were pretty disturbing.
After some research I went with Carl Jung's explanation:
Teeth represent power. Ancient man, upon killing a beast would remove its teeth and wear them as a symbol of taking the beast's power. We, in the present, tap into that ancient memory and ritual through dreaming. Our "bat phone" to the collective unconscious.

So here I am today with a full mouth of teeth and clear vision.

And yet
And yet

I am restless....

Radio Witch

Definition:
That entity who’s magic is exhibited in the cosmic occurrence of the ABSOLUTE right song at the right time being plucked from your brain and put on the radio.

You know exactly what I mean.

Today she got me with Suzanne Vega's "Marlena on the Wall". 1986 college Theatre college. Madly in love.

Prior to that nugget she hasn't let up:

we've had, oh let's see:

Scar Tissue -Red Hot Chili Peppers
Hold On - KT Tunstall
Sea and Sand - The Who
Whole of the Moon -The Waterboys

too many others

Life has become about boundaries. But not walls or fences or even lines in the sand.

More like sacred circles, protected yet open

never broken


Evolution of a priestess I suppose. Or a soul. Or a mom. Or a me.